Monday, January 31, 2011

I have become a bitter old maid.

In Church this week, there was a talk given on Eternal marriage. Said talk was given by, of course, a newlywed. Now, the speaker gave a beautiful talk. Yet, in the audience I just wanted to gouge my eyes out and throw up. I do believe in Eternal marraige, it is just when it is presented as this beautiful, perfect blessing that I feel like I am being presented with like a delicious cake, and yet not allowed to have any.
Now, it is not for a lack of trying. I think that I have chased every eligible bachelor in the Salt Lake City region. It is also not only the fact that I am not married. It is that marriage in my family has never been a picture of perfection.
Yet, I do not like feeling like this. I do not want to be bitter. Yet it is how I feel....
I am a bitter old maid.


Marrian said...

Have you read the book "A Single Voice" By Kristin M. Oaks? It is fabulous!!!! I bought it to give to a single friend of mine who is in her 40's and when I got it in the mail I decided to read it first. WOW! I am so glad I did. I may not be single but the principles still apply. If you haven't read it, I would highly recommend it. She was single until well into her old age. And then she married an apostle. :D